I've always loved the idea of having a bucket list, or just writing things that you would love to do down on a piece of paper. I've always told myself 'right Shannon you're making this list right now' and I never do it, I'm so busy doing other things that I do just sometimes forget to make it and suddenly months have passed and I still haven't made it! It's just totally left my memory.
So on Wednesday this week I had a little extra time to kill so I thought why the hell not!
I opened up my notes and began to write down all the things I would love to do,
I honesty have to say its the best thing ever, I find it so fun!
I'll just be talking and boom I've thought of something else I would love to do.
I would highly recommend any of the people who are actually reading this to create a list of all the things you would love to do, it allows you to learn more about yourself in a way in which you don't even realise you're learning. Not just that it's also amazing fun! Honesty it had me entertained for hours!!
I thought that I would share some of the many things that I came up with just for an example to help you get on your way, it can be quite hard to think of things to begin with but once you start you can't stop!!
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Thursday, 31 January 2013
Saturday, 26 January 2013
Feelings part 2
Don't fuck with other people's feelings.
You don't know someone's story until they sit down and tell you everything they have been through throughout the duration of their life. By damaging someone's feelings you're making their battle between themselves and life a hell of a lot harder than what it already could be.
I have been hurt in so many ways by the people I thought I could rely on in the past, i know what it feels like to be hurt But the people
Messed up and my feelings were hurt.
To have this added strain on a time in my life when I was was recovering from a really dark time in my life just sent me spiralling back down to that awful place, it was not a good feeling, and without even realising it so many other people are going through the exact same thing that I was and their feelings are at this moment in time very fragile. Every single persons feelings are fragile, no matter how strong you are or who you are, your feelings will always be fragile. We are only human, some of the words you can say to others could affect their already on going struggle. Keep that in mind.
Take care x
You don't know someone's story until they sit down and tell you everything they have been through throughout the duration of their life. By damaging someone's feelings you're making their battle between themselves and life a hell of a lot harder than what it already could be.
I have been hurt in so many ways by the people I thought I could rely on in the past, i know what it feels like to be hurt But the people
Messed up and my feelings were hurt.
To have this added strain on a time in my life when I was was recovering from a really dark time in my life just sent me spiralling back down to that awful place, it was not a good feeling, and without even realising it so many other people are going through the exact same thing that I was and their feelings are at this moment in time very fragile. Every single persons feelings are fragile, no matter how strong you are or who you are, your feelings will always be fragile. We are only human, some of the words you can say to others could affect their already on going struggle. Keep that in mind.
Take care x
Thursday, 24 January 2013
Why so fast?
It's always bugged me how things never happen for a a certain amount of time, and then BOOM! Suddenly everything happens at once.
I've learned that things in this life never even out, all things happen at once or nothing happens at all.
Even something as small as someone talking to you, you talk all the time and then one day nothing.
Past experience has taught me how to cope this, actually past experience has taught me quite a lot of things. Yes it bloody hurts but you can get over it I suppose, after it happens more than twice you just expect it really. As with everything else. Take care, don't let to much get to you.
I've learned that things in this life never even out, all things happen at once or nothing happens at all.
Even something as small as someone talking to you, you talk all the time and then one day nothing.
Past experience has taught me how to cope this, actually past experience has taught me quite a lot of things. Yes it bloody hurts but you can get over it I suppose, after it happens more than twice you just expect it really. As with everything else. Take care, don't let to much get to you.
Wednesday, 16 January 2013
Feelings
You see, the fact of the matter is that feelings can change in an instant. whether it's in a good way or whether it's in a bad.
Something or somebody could make your day with only one single or they could really hurt you with only one single look.
Your heart can be broken with a matter of words or a certain view that you see. Or your heart could completely light up with only a smile from that one person.
Feelings are a hard thing to understand, you could think you were fine when you are not, and you believe everything will be okay in the end but when it turns out that it's it hurts.
Feelings are very delicate things, easily upset.
What I'm basically trying to say here is take care of your feelings and look out for the things that might effect them whether that's good or it's bad, they can change in the matter of half a second. Protect them.
Thursday, 10 January 2013
Maybe it's just that time
Personally, I have always always been a person to hide away their feelings, to keep strong and never let them go to anyone. You see I've always been the type that look after people, I care about them and do everything I can to help them out even if that means hurting myself sometimes, but to be honest I've always liked it being like that, I love being the person people come to when they are upset, I love how easily they can open up to me and just talk to me about everything they are feeling, that's the way I want it to stay!
But recently things have changed my emotions are always engulfing me and sometimes all I want to do is just cry but I don't because I am everybody's rock and I can't show them that I get upset, I don't want them to think of me as weak. I think I'm just at that point now where I actually just need someone to be my rock to know how I feel and to guide me through it I suppose. Sometimes it just feels like I have no one. I am everyone's shoulder to cry on and like I mentioned I don't mind that at all but in reality I don't have a certain shoulder I can cry on and at this moment in time I need it the most.
But recently things have changed my emotions are always engulfing me and sometimes all I want to do is just cry but I don't because I am everybody's rock and I can't show them that I get upset, I don't want them to think of me as weak. I think I'm just at that point now where I actually just need someone to be my rock to know how I feel and to guide me through it I suppose. Sometimes it just feels like I have no one. I am everyone's shoulder to cry on and like I mentioned I don't mind that at all but in reality I don't have a certain shoulder I can cry on and at this moment in time I need it the most.
Tuesday, 1 January 2013
New found love
I received a letter the other day from a friend of mine that I've known for the whole time of my childhood. At the bottom of this letter she had wrote down a quotation from a William Blake poem
"To see a world in a grain of sand,
And a heaven in a wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand,
And eternity in an hour."
I've never really been a big fan of poetry but I fell in love with it straight away; it was absolutely lovely.
I had to find out what poem this was, if part of the poem was as good as that quotation I thought imagine what the rest of the poem would be like!
So that was that, I NEEDED to find this poem!
I went into various different second hand book stores to try and find some poetry books. Eventually, I found a "selected poems by William Blake" perfect!
I bought it and took it home.
I began to read all of the poems that the book contained, and I must say they were all so lovely, but then I came across the poem Auguries of Innocence. And there it was, the first verse was the quotation my friend had wrote down. I continued to read the poem and I've grown to really love it, to the point it has actually gotten me really interested in poetry. So here it is Auguries of Innocence and I'd very much like to share it with you.
William Blake - Auguries of Innocence
To see a world in a grain of sand,
And a heaven in a wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand,
And eternity in an hour.
A robin redbreast in a cage
Puts all heaven in a rage.
A dove-house fill'd with doves and pigeons
Shudders hell thro' all its regions.
A dog starv'd at his master's gate
Predicts the ruin of the state.
A horse misused upon the road
Calls to heaven for human blood.
Each outcry of the hunted hare
A fibre from the brain does tear.
A skylark wounded in the wing,
A cherubim does cease to sing.
The game-cock clipt and arm'd for fight
Does the rising sun affright.
Every wolf's and lion's howl
Raises from hell a human soul.
The wild deer, wand'ring here and there,
Keeps the human soul from care.
The lamb misus'd breeds public strife,
And yet forgives the butcher's knife.
The bat that flits at close of eve
Has left the brain that won't believe.
The owl that calls upon the night
Speaks the unbeliever's fright.
He who shall hurt the little wren
Shall never be belov'd by men.
He who the ox to wrath has mov'd
Shall never be by woman lov'd.
The wanton boy that kills the fly
Shall feel the spider's enmity.
He who torments the chafer's sprite
Weaves a bower in endless night.
The caterpillar on the leaf
Repeats to thee thy mother's grief.
Kill not the moth nor butterfly,
For the last judgement draweth nigh.
He who shall train the horse to war
Shall never pass the polar bar.
The beggar's dog and widow's cat,
Feed them and thou wilt grow fat.
The gnat that sings his summer's song
Poison gets from slander's tongue.
The poison of the snake and newt
Is the sweat of envy's foot.
The poison of the honey bee
Is the artist's jealousy.
The prince's robes and beggar's rags
Are toadstools on the miser's bags.
A truth that's told with bad intent
Beats all the lies you can invent.
It is right it should be so;
Man was made for joy and woe;
And when this we rightly know,
Thro' the world we safely go.
Joy and woe are woven fine,
A clothing for the soul divine.
Under every grief and pine
Runs a joy with silken twine.
The babe is more than swaddling bands;
Throughout all these human lands
Tools were made, and born were hands,
Every farmer understands.
Every tear from every eye
Becomes a babe in eternity;
This is caught by females bright,
And return'd to its own delight.
The bleat, the bark, bellow, and roar,
Are waves that beat on heaven's shore.
The babe that weeps the rod beneath
Writes revenge in realms of death.
The beggar's rags, fluttering in air,
Does to rags the heavens tear.
The soldier, arm'd with sword and gun,
Palsied strikes the summer's sun.
The poor man's farthing is worth more
Than all the gold on Afric's shore.
One mite wrung from the lab'rer's hands
Shall buy and sell the miser's lands;
Or, if protected from on high,
Does that whole nation sell and buy.
He who mocks the infant's faith
Shall be mock'd in age and death.
He who shall teach the child to doubt
The rotting grave shall ne'er get out.
He who respects the infant's faith
Triumphs over hell and death.
The child's toys and the old man's reasons
Are the fruits of the two seasons.
The questioner, who sits so sly,
Shall never know how to reply.
He who replies to words of doubt
Doth put the light of knowledge out.
The strongest poison ever known
Came from Caesar's laurel crown.
Nought can deform the human race
Like to the armour's iron brace.
When gold and gems adorn the plough
To peaceful arts shall envy bow.
A riddle, or the cricket's cry,
Is to doubt a fit reply.
The emmet's inch and eagle's mile
Make lame philosophy to smile.
He who doubts from what he sees
Will ne'er believe, do what you please.
If the sun and moon should doubt,
They'd immediately go out.
To be in a passion you good may do,
But no good if a passion is in you.
The whore and gambler, by the state
Licensed, build that nation's fate.
The harlot's cry from street to street
Shall weave old England's winding-sheet.
The winner's shout, the loser's curse,
Dance before dead England's hearse.
Every night and every morn
Some to misery are born,
Every morn and every night
Some are born to sweet delight.
Some are born to sweet delight,
Some are born to endless night.
We are led to believe a lie
When we see not thro' the eye,
Which was born in a night to perish in a night,
When the soul slept in beams of light.
God appears, and God is light,
To those poor souls who dwell in night;
But does a human form display
To those who dwell in realms of day.
"To see a world in a grain of sand,
And a heaven in a wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand,
And eternity in an hour."
I've never really been a big fan of poetry but I fell in love with it straight away; it was absolutely lovely.
I had to find out what poem this was, if part of the poem was as good as that quotation I thought imagine what the rest of the poem would be like!
So that was that, I NEEDED to find this poem!
I went into various different second hand book stores to try and find some poetry books. Eventually, I found a "selected poems by William Blake" perfect!
I bought it and took it home.
I began to read all of the poems that the book contained, and I must say they were all so lovely, but then I came across the poem Auguries of Innocence. And there it was, the first verse was the quotation my friend had wrote down. I continued to read the poem and I've grown to really love it, to the point it has actually gotten me really interested in poetry. So here it is Auguries of Innocence and I'd very much like to share it with you.
William Blake - Auguries of Innocence
To see a world in a grain of sand,
And a heaven in a wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand,
And eternity in an hour.
A robin redbreast in a cage
Puts all heaven in a rage.
A dove-house fill'd with doves and pigeons
Shudders hell thro' all its regions.
A dog starv'd at his master's gate
Predicts the ruin of the state.
A horse misused upon the road
Calls to heaven for human blood.
Each outcry of the hunted hare
A fibre from the brain does tear.
A skylark wounded in the wing,
A cherubim does cease to sing.
The game-cock clipt and arm'd for fight
Does the rising sun affright.
Every wolf's and lion's howl
Raises from hell a human soul.
The wild deer, wand'ring here and there,
Keeps the human soul from care.
The lamb misus'd breeds public strife,
And yet forgives the butcher's knife.
The bat that flits at close of eve
Has left the brain that won't believe.
The owl that calls upon the night
Speaks the unbeliever's fright.
He who shall hurt the little wren
Shall never be belov'd by men.
He who the ox to wrath has mov'd
Shall never be by woman lov'd.
The wanton boy that kills the fly
Shall feel the spider's enmity.
He who torments the chafer's sprite
Weaves a bower in endless night.
The caterpillar on the leaf
Repeats to thee thy mother's grief.
Kill not the moth nor butterfly,
For the last judgement draweth nigh.
He who shall train the horse to war
Shall never pass the polar bar.
The beggar's dog and widow's cat,
Feed them and thou wilt grow fat.
The gnat that sings his summer's song
Poison gets from slander's tongue.
The poison of the snake and newt
Is the sweat of envy's foot.
The poison of the honey bee
Is the artist's jealousy.
The prince's robes and beggar's rags
Are toadstools on the miser's bags.
A truth that's told with bad intent
Beats all the lies you can invent.
It is right it should be so;
Man was made for joy and woe;
And when this we rightly know,
Thro' the world we safely go.
Joy and woe are woven fine,
A clothing for the soul divine.
Under every grief and pine
Runs a joy with silken twine.
The babe is more than swaddling bands;
Throughout all these human lands
Tools were made, and born were hands,
Every farmer understands.
Every tear from every eye
Becomes a babe in eternity;
This is caught by females bright,
And return'd to its own delight.
The bleat, the bark, bellow, and roar,
Are waves that beat on heaven's shore.
The babe that weeps the rod beneath
Writes revenge in realms of death.
The beggar's rags, fluttering in air,
Does to rags the heavens tear.
The soldier, arm'd with sword and gun,
Palsied strikes the summer's sun.
The poor man's farthing is worth more
Than all the gold on Afric's shore.
One mite wrung from the lab'rer's hands
Shall buy and sell the miser's lands;
Or, if protected from on high,
Does that whole nation sell and buy.
He who mocks the infant's faith
Shall be mock'd in age and death.
He who shall teach the child to doubt
The rotting grave shall ne'er get out.
He who respects the infant's faith
Triumphs over hell and death.
The child's toys and the old man's reasons
Are the fruits of the two seasons.
The questioner, who sits so sly,
Shall never know how to reply.
He who replies to words of doubt
Doth put the light of knowledge out.
The strongest poison ever known
Came from Caesar's laurel crown.
Nought can deform the human race
Like to the armour's iron brace.
When gold and gems adorn the plough
To peaceful arts shall envy bow.
A riddle, or the cricket's cry,
Is to doubt a fit reply.
The emmet's inch and eagle's mile
Make lame philosophy to smile.
He who doubts from what he sees
Will ne'er believe, do what you please.
If the sun and moon should doubt,
They'd immediately go out.
To be in a passion you good may do,
But no good if a passion is in you.
The whore and gambler, by the state
Licensed, build that nation's fate.
The harlot's cry from street to street
Shall weave old England's winding-sheet.
The winner's shout, the loser's curse,
Dance before dead England's hearse.
Every night and every morn
Some to misery are born,
Every morn and every night
Some are born to sweet delight.
Some are born to sweet delight,
Some are born to endless night.
We are led to believe a lie
When we see not thro' the eye,
Which was born in a night to perish in a night,
When the soul slept in beams of light.
God appears, and God is light,
To those poor souls who dwell in night;
But does a human form display
To those who dwell in realms of day.